Photo via Hawaii Kawaii Blog
My blogger pal,
Suze, has tagged me in a game. She explains the concept thusly:
For this tag, participants are charged with reproducing a
scrap of a manuscript in which the word, 'look,' first appears and then
passing the baton onto five other bloggers. I'd like to tag
L. Diane Wolfe
Michael Offutt
L.G. Smith
Charles the Reader
Heather Murphy
Participate only if you want to, make it as lengthy or brief as you like. I look forward to your offerings.
The thing is, I don't exactly have loads of manuscripts sitting around unfinished. For the most part, blogging suits my writing style just fine - simple ideas in short spurts. That said, I would like to publish one book before I ride off into the sunset. As such, I am taking Suze's tag as a kick in the pants to get to work. Perhaps this is the beginning,
the middle or maybe a false start. Time will tell. For now, I plug my nose and jump in...
“How do I look?” she asks, self-assessing in the mirror.
“That’s a completely unfair question, you realize,” I
respond, reclining on her bed.
“I know, every man’s nightmare dilemma – no possible answer
that won’t get you in heaps of trouble.
Don’t worry. I won’t ask if
I look fat.” We both laugh. “I’m serious. What do you think of them?”
“Think of what?”
“These blue hair clips. I picked them up in Harajuku this afternoon. I thought they looked cool.” Cool. It’s a word I barely understand.
“Why do you care what I
think?”
“You’re the one who’s going to be seen with me. You’re a man. You have opinions.
You must have some sense of style.” We both know perfectly well that I don’t.
“You’re just going to ignore what I say and do what you
want.”
She grins at that.
“Possibly. I still want to
know what you think. Come on, we
need to get going.”
What do I think?
I take in the whole presentation.
Soccer sneakers even though she doesn’t play. Jeans that are non-descript to my eyes but probably exactly
the right fit, cut, color, whatever. The sort of soccer-style jersey I used to get as
a hand-me-down in the 1970s but is somehow the height of fashion for teenage
girls in Tokyo 20 years later. Or
maybe in London? Both? Neither? She’s all woman underneath. But the outward projection is
tending in a different direction.
She’s pursuing an ideal that even she seems to know she’ll never
attain. The hair clips, a
translucent, junky plastic, are only part of the problem. But that’s not what I say.
“You look like you’re about eight years old.”
“Okay,” she says.
In one swift motion, the clips come off, set on the dresser and already
forgotten. Was I too honest? Is she hurt? Offended?
Apparently not. As soon as
she got the answer she needed, it was as if the entire conversation had never
happened.
“Let’s go.”
